thing called lifeHigh school is like a jungle or a zoo, sometimes it even feels like the maze hunter in the movie is that thing you have to do to be able to move on in life, it's like if you skip this important step, everything else falls apart like a cookie. See, that's it, I had no idea where I was going, I was just drifting in the dead sea and that's when my boat crashed. It's 2013, my freshman year of high school, you know, prom, the guy of your dreams is about to ask you out, you're driving that new Honda Accord your parents just got you because you passed your DMV driving test, about to be hired to work at Forever 21, you have the best team goals to go to prom with you and you and your mom have the best daughter-mother relationship Narrowest you could ask for, right? WRONG, it was anything but my reality. Now I wasn't your average bad kid, the one who knocked over desks, walked out of class, badmouthed the teacher and I actually thought it was funny to be the class clown who got in trouble . In fact, I was the opposite. I was the one who raises my hand, wait your turn, who is a study buddy type student, but everything went wrong, I would do my homework but I didn't turn it in or I didn't have it all just not done most of the time. It's 2013, my freshman year of high school, the house phone wouldn't and couldn't stop ringing, it was like we were working in the emergency room. from a hospital, every time I saw my school's name pop up on the screen I knew it didn't mean anything good, at that moment all I could do was wish I could become invisible like Susan Storm from Fantastic 4. I was dreading what was happening. It was then that my name was called in court as I was walking down the stairs. I moved as slowly as Gary through the middle of a paper... until you could show me you could do it. what needs to be done and who will make something of yourself. I am in silence as tears stream down my face. Today, February 16, 2016, as I sat and wrote this article, it brought out so many emotions that I didn't know how much detail to put some conversations where they were raw and other times we I haven't even talked, I've now been at uni for 3 weeks total, coming up for my fourth, things really haven't changed, I call him here and there because she doesn't let me go a month without calling, I don't know who my mother would be, but she's on a better path. I guess I just wish things would go back to the way they were before high school, before the betrayal, before it was time for me to make life-changing decisions. but that’s life. I will make sure to keep you posted for summer 2016 sincerely the girl who got lost in life.