During these difficult years, I learned what domestic violence is, what it means to live with an abusive spouse. This means being isolated and also not being able to have friends or even hold a job. I couldn't even see my family because he thought I was going to tell them what I was going through. So I had to live in silence for many years, keeping it all to myself and not letting slip the kind of abuse I was actually experiencing. It all started when I was nineteen. I lived in isolation, it was like living in a bad night's sleep that never ended and had lasted for many years. When he isolated me, he took my car and he didn't give me any money either because he thought I was going to leave him. He would also never allow me to go to school because that would be a way for me to escape his abuse. He also controlled my every move, like calling all the time and asking people to watch my every move. He would check everything if something was wrong or if dinner wasn't cooked. I would be beaten. These are the horrible things I experienced when I was young. The fear of violence started right after we got married in February 1991. He knew after we got married that he had control over me. It started with him shoving me, then it progressed until he knocked my teeth out. I remember him picking me up and throwing me in the crib on top of my daughter because he was angry his day had gone bad. He would also hit me in the head, making my ears bleed, but that never fazed him or made him stop, it just made him angrier and abuse me more. Then there were numerous other incidents, such as me being pushed out of the door of a moving vehicle on the Farmerville Highway. luckily i just had a lot... middle of paper ...... as far as verbal abuse goes, it doesn't help me in any way mentally or physically. Symptoms of domestic violence include hitting, slapping, mind control, and biting, beating and also sexual abuse. I have suffered this type of abuse for most of my life. It's something I will never forget. There are several options in treating domestic violence, such as seeing a psychologist, which helps but never goes away. You must never become anyone's victim again. I also had to take Zoloft for depression and went to talk to another woman who also suffered from abuse. Domestic violence is common in many marriages and also in relationships. It means finally breaking up to rebuild my life and that of my daughter. I can also go get something. I always wanted a nursing degree.