My head is spinning. My stomach is knotted with a mix of emotions: anxiety, excitement, worry, hope, terror, desire, and love. A love I didn't know I could feel. The day has finally arrived. Patience is not one of my attributes but I have been patient, more than you can imagine. Anticipation overwhelms me. I've been waiting for centuries and to think that I'm only a few moments away... The room is at the end of the long silent corridor, with each passing second I get closer and closer to your destiny and mine. But I don't want to get any closer. I want to run but there is no chance. I want you desperately but not this way. I'm petrified as the double doors loom before me. Tears stream down my face glistening in the dull light. I wipe them. I must be strong. You are the answer that will make everything perfect. There was a way out. I didn't follow him. I thought they were wrong, I thought it wasn't true. I hoped they were wrong, I hope they weren't. But I still don't know. The double doors loom above me, as I approach, they call to me softly, kiss me silently. As I enter the room I feel a cold chill down my spine and goosebumps on my arm, I can't help but imagine death calling to me, soul starving. The room is large and immaculate. People surround me but I still feel isolated. I am isolated. I don't have anyone. Again. I remember the procedures I will undergo but I cannot understand the words being spoken. Trembling, I open my mouth to speak but no sound comes out. A piece of fabric blocks my view and I feel an uncomfortable sensation in my stomach. Minutes pass with only the clanking of metal equipment filling the silence and strange footsteps. A knife pierces my skin, causing pain beyond b...... middle of paper ......h as I try to comfort you. A velvet blanket hid the truth. I tell you that any minute now the pain will stop and if you let me hold you in my arms it will all go away. I wake up every day hoping for a miracle. My eyes are never dry, my heart is numb, it has no feeling. I need you to save me from the dark place I've fallen into. The smell of toast wafts through the slightly ajar door, making me nauseous. The empty feeling I had before meeting you has disappeared, you have satisfied my hunger. The desire and fixation I felt for Jamie disappeared the moment I saw you and reality hit me hard. I can only apologize for my envious, vindictive actions that have caused you, Jamie and Stacey, so much pain, but I know that words will never be enough. The only way to show that I truly have remorse would be to go back in time, but that can never happen..